"It's not just a physical attraction, I love him for every single thing he is. Every word he says, every step he takes. This is something that will never die. I have tried to stay reasonable with this, but I just can't anymore. I just can't."
Sometimes, things go wrong. That's my case right now. I'm bad, really bad. I've just had 18 four days ago, and my 18th birthday was the worst I've ever had. Today, I haven't seen my boyfriend as I wished. Tomorrow, after school, I have to go in Charente for my Christmas vacations, It's a five hours driving trip to go there. And there, in Charente, I'm gonna argue with my step mother. She's going to ask me go live with her but I'm going to refuse to stay with my boyfriend, just as I did with Alaska. I'm not sure that he realizes all the important things that I've left for him... Over there, I'm also going to work a lot. But the one positive thing is that I'm going to see my baby horse called Vicking and my two other horses and my two donkeys. I'm going to take care of them. To spend my lost time as well as I can, I'm going to write letters to my dear boyfriend to tell him how much I love him! I hope that I'm going to practice horse-riding over there. Do you only know that feeling; you know, you wake up early a morning, you take the horse in the field, you prepare it, then, you go with it in the forest and you run and run and run without stopping because you're just so good, you forget everything, you let your life away before riding the horse. It's just like being free. I hope that my Christmas holidays will be great but being separated from the person you love the most during one week or more can't make me feel happy :/